Archive for November, 2008

What a Day!

Well I’m back in Boston—only 4 hours later than expected. I guess for the busiest travel day of the year that isn’t too bad. Thanks to some outstanding books “New Moon” (the 2nd in the Twilight series- which I finished at the airport) and “Those Who Save Us”( which I started and can’t put down, it’s so good!) the long delay wasn’t totally miserable. As expected, I’m not in the best mood right now because I really didn’t want to come back to school, so I’ll keep this brief and spare you all my blah-ness.


I woke up this morning to a gray, rainy day. I hate rain at school when I have to trek around in it, but at home I didn’t mind, it made for a very cozy morning with the breakfast I have desperately been craving all semester: stovetop banana oatmeal. Oh, wow. I don’t think I realized how much I missed this until I had it this morning. Good thing I go home again in 12 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and can eat this nonstop.


After breakfast I packed up, got in a quick cardio workout, showered, and made a quick lunch before rushing off to the airport. 


I had a sandwich: Ezekial cinnamon raisin with turkey and a clementine. I was skeptical at first about how the turkey/zeke combo was going to taste but it actually worked really well. The sweet/savory flavors were great. My thought process was: turkeys+cranberries=good. Cranberries=raisins basically. Thus raisins+turkey=good. Really, my thought process should have been ezekial+anything= awesome because that works too.



I bought a little snack to have when I still thought my flight was on time that would hold me over until I got home for dinner. Honey Peanut Balance Bar. This was my first try with this flavor and I LOVED IT. The taste was great, the texture was great, there is tons of protein and it really did a good job of keeping me full. I’ll definitely get these again.



I found out that my flight was delayed so that it wouldn’t take off until 6:30 at the earliest. I thought about just buying a few more snacks to make it through because I was sort of scared of the fast food options at the airport. But I know better than that now. If I don’t have a real meal and just snack on little things I don’t feel satisfied at all and it just sets me up for a binge. Instead, I walked around the airport deciding what to have and settled on Subway.

6” Veggie Sub on Honey Wheat. This was really good! I haven’t had Subway in so long so it was sort of fun to try it out again. It felt good to get so many veggies in too, mmm.


I also had some dried pears that I found at a kiosk. These were sort of weird–they were really chewy but not much flavor–they were only 50 calories for the whole bag though, so I don’t really know what I was expecting.


The flight was HORRIBLE! I used to fly all the time, like seriously at least twice a month because I was always off visiting my ex-boyfriend who went to school in North Carolina, or going home, or flying while studying abroad. I never had any problems with being scared of flying but for some reason last time and tonight I have been a nervous wreck. I’ve been so anxious and scared and it didn’t help that this was seriously the bumpiest ride of my life. We were on a teeny-tiny plane and the weather was terrible so there was more turbulence than ever. It was so scary! When I got off the plane I looked in the mirror and I was white as a ghost!


When I finally made it back to my room I was getting really hungry again so I had some dessert of graham crackers and chocolate. It was almost like s’mores! 


Ok, now I need to seriously get my act together with schoolwork. I did basically nothing over break and have so much to get done before finals. I’m just warning you that my life is not going to be all too exciting over the next couple weeks. Hopefully I can create some good meals to get me through. 

Don’t worry though—come December 13 this blog is going to be better than ever. I’ll be home for a whole month cooking up amazing, delicious, beautiful recipes and I CAN’T WAIT!



Today started and ended great, but there was a little rocky period in the middle. I did manage to raid Anthropologie with my mom though, which makes any day a success!


I was starving just 2.5 hours after breakfast! Like ready to eat my own arm. Luckily we still have plenty of food leftover from Thanksgiving so it didn’t have to come to that. I had some turkey with ketchup/mustard, raw veggies, and the sweetest red pear that I’ve had in quite a while. 



Gingerbread Latte. I love this flavor! Honestly, the only things that get me through the miserable winter are the great seasonal flavors of foods and drinks that come out. 


I’ve been a bottomless pit all day and snacked on some dried fruit and graham sticks because I knew there was no way I could make it all the way until dinner.



We had a mix of things for dinner tonight, which is my family’s favorite way to eat but honestly makes me really anxious. I feel like it is so hard for me to gauge how much I’m actually eating and when I’m full when I just eat appetizer like foods. I tried really hard to only eat off my plate rather than just grabbing things from the platters, and it worked at first, but I definitely did pick at things at the end of the meal.

I made a delicious Carmelized onion and roasted tomato tart which was made in a pie shell and was the perfect sweet/savory combo. My mom made her famous Baked Brie which is brie, brown sugar, walnuts, and pecans baked in a puff pastry shell. We also had roasted butternut squash, raw peppers, crackers, pita chips, and apples and of course some Chianti wine.


Here’s plate #1


And #2. I had another apple slice or 2, another sliver of baked brie and stuck my fork into the tart a few times as well after this.


After dinner came my ‘setback.’ I don’t know what came over me but I all of a sudden just felt really guilty and sick over dinner and this week. I was doing really well, and haven’t counted calories or measured out anything since I’ve been home and I felt like I was really moving in the right direction. Tonight at dinner though I sort of freaked out. I knew that the brie was a big indulgence and I only had a little bit but I still felt guilty. For anyone who has counted calories as religiously as I have and then stopped, you can relate at how difficult it is, especially to just give it up cold-turkey. I suddenly felt the uncontrollable need to know how many calories I had eaten. It’s not like it would have changed anything, but it just made me feel so anxious not knowing. I had been so strict in the past and the only times that I haven’t measured out every gram and counted every little calorie has been when I totally over-indulge on special occasions, knowing that it’s just one day and that it’s ok to overdo it by a lot. I guess it’s still in my mind that not counting=going overboard and gaining weight. I know that’s irrational, but I’m working on it.

Anyway, I just felt like I needed to know so I tried to start adding things up in my head but there was just absolutely no way that I could figure it out, and I was so conflicted because half of me was trying so hard to just forget it and the other half was spinning numbers around like crazy. It was bad.

I definitely didn’t overeat, in fact not only was I not stuffed, I was actually still a little hungry! I eventually talked myself down, made a cup of tea, and was able to enjoy the rest of my night. I guess it’s all part of the process.


We watched “88 Minutes” starring Al Pacino tonight, and it was really good–very suspenseful and it definitely kept you guessing until the end.

As the night went on I was definitely hungry again and knew I needed to eat something else or I would just be setting myself up for problems later. I had a skinny cow ice cream sandwich drizzled with maple syrup and a little bite of pumpkin cake. I had a few more nibbles of the cake as I was putting it away and felt guilty about it but I’m trying not to. For some reason I think that it’s either be perfect by not eating anything that isn’t on a plate and eaten deliberately while sitting down or having the day be a failure. This isn’t the case. There is a middle ground. Having an extra bite of cake, or grabbing a graham stick or pretzel twist from the bag DOES NOT mean that the day is a failure, or that I am a failure. It’s not about being perfect all the time, something that I really, really need to get into my head. 


And with this epiphany I just went down and grabbed a piece of fudge because it’s delicious, I was craving it, and I enjoyed it immensely. 


Whew, too many emotions for one night. And I have to go back to school tomorrow. Blahhhh. Sorry I’m not more chipper right now : (

I’ll see you guys tomorrow—back in Boston.

Last Day

It’s my last full day at home, sad!

Last night was a lot of fun catching up with my old friends. I got home pretty late and was exhausted but right when I was about to get into bed my stomach started screaming at me and I knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep if I was hungry. I made a little late-night snack of greek yogurt, dried fruit, and graham crackers. It was the perfect solution.



I got up this morning and immediately worked out. It’s so nice having exercise equipment right in the house instead of having to venture out on a 15 minute walk in the 20* bitter cold to go to the gym at school! After exercising I made a delicious waffle tower


I have a coffee date in a little bit with my best friend. I can’t wait! Besides that, I’m not sure what the plans for the day will be, but I’m sure it will be fun.

Have a great day!

Lovely Leftovers

Today was another absolutely perfect day. It’s so sad but I have honestly really forgotten what it feels like to be happy. I’ve gotten so used to being either miserable or just satisfied that being genuinely happy and relaxed is amazing. I’ve definitely put off some schoolwork that needs to get done but after being so blah for so long I think I deserve to really take a vacation (mentally as well as literally) so I’m just going to keep procrastinating guilt-free!


I woke up at 9:00 this morning after going to bed at 11!! I can’t believe how much sleep I’ve been getting–I guess my body really needs it. At school I just can’t sleep in past 7:30 or 8 no matter what time I go to bed, so it’s amazing what being so comfortable at home can do for me. I love feeling so refreshed and alive!

I was not hungry in the least bit after my feast yesterday so I just got up and started my day with a nice and sweaty workout. I still wasn’t hungry after I showered so I sipped some coffee and watched a little TV (something else I miss while at school–no television!)

My family sat down to lunch around 12 and I was finally starting to get an appetite. We had leftover appetizers from yesterday and I also added a delicious honeycrisp apple because I feel like I’ve been lacking in the fruit department lately, and they are just oh-so amazing.


After lunch my dad and I headed down to Phipps Conservatory for the afternoon. It’s like a giant greenhouse with lots of different rooms featuring plants and flowers from different regions around the world. They just started the winter show so there were lots of gorgeous Christmas trees up. Here’s my favorite picture of the day:


When we were pulling into our driveway we saw a bunch of TURKEYS hanging out in our tree! These guys got lucky this year ; )



Last night I got the strangest desire to color! How weird is that!? We didn’t have any supplies in the house and we were all too drunk tired to go buy anything, but today when we were out we picked up a coloring book and spent the remainder of the afternoon coloring. I’ll have to post some pictures of our masterpieces! Hehe, we are such dorks–I love it. It was actually really relaxing and fun, and I haven’t done it for ages so it brought back some fond memories.

Around 4:00 I was really hungry from using so much creative energy that I made a little snack of a clementine, pita chips, and a bit of cheese. Mmm.



We rented “Smart People” with Sarah Jessica Parker, Dennis Quaid, and Ellen Page and watched it before dinner. I really liked it! It had a great humor to it and took place in PITTSBURGH! YAY! It was actually filmed here too so I recognized a lot of the places. Ellen Page is such a great actress.

Dinner was obviously leftovers from last night. They were just as good today!


I had to end the meal with a little something sweet so I grabbed a tiny piece of fudge. Perfect.


Now I’m off to hang out with some friends from high school. I love how we all go so long without seeing each other during the semester but everything is always the same when we get together over breaks. I’ve been friends with these kids since kindergarten and it’s always great to see them.

Have a great night!


Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope you all had as great of a holiday as I did. This was definitely the best Thanksgiving that I can remember. I was in charge of a great deal of the cooking/set-up/clean-up so I was definitely busy but that just made it even more rewarding. We hosted the feast at our house this year and there were 7 of us in total: me, my parents, my little sister, uncle, grandma and grandpa. We had such a great time as always and afterward my dad and I were saying that we wished we had a video camera or something to record our ridiculous conversations. We’re definitely your typical “Jewish family” with our loud bickering and shouting over each other. There were points where we were laughing so hard we were crying! It was great.


I got up early this morning to get a good workout in preparation for the day’s festivities. Afterward I had a few cups of coffee and a delicious honeycrisp apple as I got to work on getting ready for Thanksgiving.



Cheese Plate: Garlic Cheddar, Smoked Gouda, Brie


The whole spread including: cheese, veggies and dip, Grandma’s famous chopped liver, salmon paté and crackers.


And my family’s traditional cocktail: Black Russian. I’m such a lightweight that I was definitely feeling it after this drink! 


Thanksgiving Feast

Frozen Cranberry, Pineapple, Marshmallow cups.


Carrot Ring 


Cranberry, Pecan, Cornbread Stuffing






Roasted green beans, brussels sprouts, broccoli.


Maple-Brown Sugar Sweet Potatoes


The whole spread–so delicious, and we have more left-overs than we know what to do with!


Wine. I had about 1.5 glasses of the Pinot Noir throughout the afternoon and was drunk by the end! I’m an embarrassment, hehe.



And the best part of the meal, obviously.

Carrot-Cake Cupcakes, homemade fudge.


….And the star of the day and my pride and joy:

Praline-Pumpkin Cake


DROOL. Everyone was raving about this and said that it was by far the best dessert we’ve ever made and was definitely restaurant-worthy. I just might have to go back for another slice as a midnight snack ; )


I am STUFFED. I definitely ate and drank way too much but I enjoyed every bite and sip that I took. I was able to really let myself indulge and enjoy my amazing meal guilt-free. I worked really hard cooking and preparing this year and it makes me so happy that everyone loved everything and had a great time. 

After we stuffed ourselves to capacity most of my family collapsed on the couch but my stomach was so filled to the point of bursting that I couldn’t even sit down comfortably so my dad and I went for a long walk around the neighborhood. It felt great to get some fresh air and chat. 

I’m still super-full and hope that my stomach makes some room later tonight so I can go back for seconds on that cake and try some of the food that I didn’t get a chance to taste yet. For now I’m going to go change into my sweats and watch some football. I LOVE THANKSGIVING!

A New Person

I really feel like a whole new person today. I was just so much calmer, relaxed, and just happier. I just felt good for the first time in months. This is really good, but really bad at the same time. It’s great because it means that I am capable of being the happy, funny, relaxed person when I’m in the right place—but it also makes me sad to know that I’m only home for a few more days and then I’m going back to the place that makes me turn into lame-o Debbie Downer who is anxious and stressed and just plain sad. Boo. I guess I should work really hard over the next few days to figure out exactly what it is that allows me to be in such a great mood here and then try to recreate that back at school. 

Today was such a great and busy day. I was running around doing errands, shopping, chatting with friends, and cooking all day. I was so busy and (sorry to keep repeating it!) happy all day that what I was eating/how hungry I was/when and what I was going to eat next just wasn’t on my mind. I know that a lot of my eating issues stem from my unhappiness and boredom at school and that just wasn’t an issue here. I ate when the opportunity presented itself rather than obsessively scheduling my time surrounding my meals and snacks. It felt really liberating and made not counting calories a non-issue. I was too busy and relaxed to bother with numbers.


At some point in the afternoon of running errands I drove past a Panera and knew that was exactly what I wanted for lunch. I popped in and had the vegetable soup and 1/2 Mediterranean veggie/hummus sandwich. It was delicious and perfect for the chilly day.



I was busy all afternoon getting my hair cut, going into the madness of the grocery store, and getting things ready for tomorrow. I didn’t even need an afternoon snack! We’re hosting Thanksgiving tomorrow so our fridge is jam packed with things for that and there was no way we were going back to the crazy store to pick up ingredients for dinner tonight so instead we got Sushi! We went to “our” sushi place–I miss it so much when I’m at school! My mom and I split: Yellowtail Roll, Eel Roll, Albacore/Salmon Roll, and Shrimp/Crabmeat Roll. I LOVE SUSHI!



I can’t show you pictures of dessert yet because it was all nibbles, licks, and bites while baking desserts for tomorrow. I CANNOT wait to officially dig in to these desserts because the tastes that I had were PHENOMENAL. My sister and I made what I think is going to be the best (and biggest) cake ever created. It’s unbelievable.

How’s that for a cliffhanger?

See you all tomorrow—HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Home Sweet Home

I’m HOMEEEEEEEEEEE!! It feels so good to be back. This has definitely been a long and hard semester so far and it’s been physically, mentally, and emotionally draining. I really needed a break and am so glad to be home in my cozy house with my family : )


I had the best sleep of my life last night. I have been sleeping horribly at school and I guess I was more exhausted than I thought. I passed out as soon as my head hit the pillow, slept straight through the night, and was shocked when I woke up this morning and saw it was 9:15! I feel great now!

I had a clementine (look at the SNOW!!!!) and then worked out a bit.



After exercising I wasn’t all that hungry, and since it was already 10:15 I decided to just keep things light with some waffles. It’s so nice to eat at a nice big table instead of my cramped little desk in my teeny tiny room. 



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